Subtle coma

Willing to anticipate the daily suicide – consider anti-anxiety pills; natural – natural, I could not keep from taking them – consider anti-anxiety pills taken; normal. Medicated, in my full joyful youth, with the orange flask upon the fingers, I could not evade diagnosing that my anal fire had not ceased after the water diluting my anti-anxiety pills – consider them taken; habitual – flooded – not entirely (it was little water); wet – my used stomach; regular: still thirsty. From my actions there was not much left – consider the water drank; weighed – unless to lean my back on my wood bed – back on the white wall, legs on the mattress; usual – to not delay myself on sleeping; ordinary. I could not help noticing our Savior – garnish, symbol; commonplace – celestially nailed at the white wall – nailed (hands and feet); vulgar – within its crossed Lady King vial (with a silly face). Why should something be nailed like that? I could not help comparing it with my own image: me, abed with the vial, drooling all over the nightstand which looked like clamoring – in a mantra: jump, Master. And I, with a silly face, slept like a child in a induced coma; felonious.